My FOotsteP

what I've done in 2011:

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Gotten a new piercing.

Dyed my hair.

Ended a relationship.

Started a new relationship.

Been on a long car/bus journey.

Passed an exam.

Met someone who’s now an important part of my life.

Cried on someone’s shoulder.

Had a massive fight with a boy/girl friend.

Received flowers.

Had a Valentine.

Written a letter using pen & paper.

Gone to see a therapist.

Been prescribed medication by a doctor.

Read a really good book.

Gone to the zoo.

Spent too much money on unnecessary things.

Traveled by train.

Cried over a member of the opposite sex.

Spent the day out in the sun getting a tan.

Slammed a door out of frustration.

Had an anxiety attack.

Babysat for a friend’s child.

Had a BBQ

Gone bowling.

Seen a film at the cinema in 3D.

Gone on a date.

Been the only sober one on a night out.

Helped someone home after they had been drinking.

Stayed up all night.

Talked on the phone for over two hours.

Supported someone who’d received bad news.

Watched some kind of live sporting event

Read an entire book in one day.

Bought a DVD the day it was released.

Eaten McDonald’s more than four times in a single week.

Cried as a result of exam stress.

Met some incredible new people.

Gone to great parties.

Fallen backwards off a chair.

Broken my glasses.

Worn a watch for the first time in years.

Cried over someone in my past.

Spent hours aimlessly browsing the internet.

Thrown up.

Cried over a film.

Gone out of my way to avoid an ex-boy/girlfriend.

Fought with someone in public.

Been in a relationship for a year or longer.

Cried in front of someone I adore.

Lost one of my closest friends.

Life

2011-10-30T14:28:00.003+08:00

And so by this time, i should be doing some studies for my spm which is 15days left from now.

But theres something i really wanna express bout life.

So just randomly clicking around facebook, browsing some Photography pages.

I came across this girl, a Malaysian, who went all the way to UK for photographing. I dont know if she could made a living there which is enough to support her life there. But one thing, she found her dream, a place where she belongs. She has been travelling around Europe, Asia... and theres a line she says "I want to show the world what the rest of the world looks like."

And she made me think of what actually a life im looking for, how i want it to be

Is it like what always been running in my mind,

about getting the highest post, earning the richest salary, commanding the team,

Or wearing the Chanel perfume, walking around with a pair of Salvatore Ferragamo, driving the luxurious car?

Or spending time with the love ones, camwhoring around aimlessly,

Or having a family, breeding half dozen of kids, having them shouting for my attention, with same circular daily routine?

I wonder.

But theres always one thing buried that never reveals,

A dream of mine.

Instead of doing something so called an ordinary dream, doing something about his dream, doing something that parents hoping to see on me

I should do something for myself.

Yes, this is selfish.

But , life is too short. Forgive and Forget. Allow things to mess up. Cest la vie.

I don't know still, what am I really looking for in my life.

But clearly, its not one of them stated above.

Perhaps, "I wanna be happy" ?

A simple dream, but yet is not simple to get there.

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This is one of the short stories I came across in this novel '' Chicken Soup for the Soul ''

THE MOST CARING CHILD

Author and lecturer once talked about a contest to find the most caring child. The winner was a four year old child whose next door neighbour was an elderly gentlemen who had recently lost hi wife. Upon seeing the man cry, the lil boy went into the gentleman's yard climbed onto his lap and just sat there. When his morher asked him what he had said to the neighbour, the lil boy said, '' Nothing, I just helped him cry.''

2011-10-02T20:54:00.003+08:00

Its been sometime since i finish my spm trials..obviously its still not the right time yet for studies perhaps? yea it must be. Lai, give me some beat (lol from namewee) oh Lai, i need some beat to get the omph ! :p

I would call this particular time as "soul-healing-time''. Get a couple of great books, spending some money, pamper myself, jog with max exhaustion, spending some time with the love ones, staying up late just to wait for the kiss scene in korean drama , dance with the ra dio. Do it as well as you can, you'll get created something. Yea this is the way life should be, no? Yes.

Those days during exam time is like a Fuck. Seriously i mean it is really lika fuck. Could you just imagine sleepless night with all the formulas, theories, applications thingy running in your mind while you sleeping? Its like i never slept for that one month. Awful huh? Pretty.

Sometimes, I really want a Sweet Escape for my own. I mean alone, leaving all the things behind. Still remember i used to like hanging around alone and never for once felt bored. Staring at the passer by and scoffing at their what-so-called-FASHION, eavesdropping at random conversation, playing eyes with some hot guys...fun times back.

So Ive actually mocked a few interviews : Taylors, Sunway, Nanyang Polytechnics. I've been crapping all this way. So chillax laaa~

Weird question from one of my interviewers : Can you define your name Su-Jie?

I was like : Double liew Tee Eff !? no other better question ? kay..just hantam terok2. Biar je la kena ke tak ! So yah nailed it. *peace*

Another thing is bout ''leaving school cert'' and ''personal testimonial''.

Oh fuck i havent photocopies all the certs ! and oh dear second fuck, i still got some handouts to be completed. Ciao.

with love fab.

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too far to reach

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I didnt know the main objective of me writing this post. Hardly could get this post a title.

Actually I have alot to tell tonight. Its really hard keeping all the things inside.

But still, Im sitting infront of the screen, hands on the keyboard, things running inside my mind like mad,

but none of these lines telling what inside me.

Hmm aight. Ive give up telling tonight.

2011-07-28T22:03:00.002+08:00

ugh fuck the mood..emo kao kao mann...
had just stuffed myself up with two panadols but it seems not working fml:(
i wanna sleep now.
i wanna go home already.
my head is too heavy to just think and is counting down to burst.
and i need to study instead of sleeping la weyh
*slapping the fat face* wakup janice !

Dorothy Perkins

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gown that look superb elegant

tube dress

and i bought this floral jumpsuit

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Cant get the eyes off you when you're around.

taken by Eunice.

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its been really sometime since the last locate myself on the dance floor and really make some moves.

A fear, perhaps?

Fear of seeing my own fats bouncing wiggly woggly saggily. Fear of seeing myself dancing without turning out without the beautiful muscle lines?

Perhaps.

hmm today finally feel the beats. so Jyeah !

gone through all types of things to destressed: from running to eating, movie to crying out lungs.. still find it dancing belongs to me more.

danced like a mad bitch blasting Linkin Park's music. swearing alot mann. almost a litre i think.. with my bra dripping wet ( ewwwww...)

i think i really need to go back dancing like real soon

i rilly rilly willy willy miss dancing :(

fuck the exam fuck the spm fuck all those study

ughhh geram si wa !

I FEEL THE OMPH TONIGHT ! give me some beat i'll show u the heart-breaking moves!

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You're always there, you're everywhere. But right now I wish you were here

Damn, what I'd do to have you here?

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awwwwr :') this is so sweeet

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Seriously i think my run looks hotter than Kirsten Stewart's hahahaha :)

Thanks to the photographer's great skills that make me looks tall and slim.

feels my line?

visit his blog here

2011-07-14T22:01:00.004+08:00

been thinking for some time like exactly what i should write today.

nothing special topic that i wanna share

will do some report of my day

wakup this morning found out school shoes still dripping wet , heavy rain again in this lil town yesterday. Which I likely believe this the main reason that made me down and lazy to speak

No white school shoes for today

''Janice Ng 14/7 5sc1 -Memakai kasut bukan berwarna putih.''

Did some research on universities and colleges in UK and World Top 200 universities.

Short listed some top universities which im looking forward to:

-King's College, UK

-Bellerbys College, UK

-Stanford University, US (ranked 4)

-MIT ( Massachusetts Institute of Technology) , US (ranked 3)

Since lil, I always have a typical mindset :'' I must work hard and do well in study. One day I'll be a graduate from such and such top university.'' And till now, it is what i still hold on and believe in although things change and i know only naive stupid people thinks that way.

Sometimes, things just dont work out the way you think they will right?

Don't care la, whether what will it turn out at the end of the day, at least i feel better to think it this way. And i wont feel sorry to myself for working like ass hard all these days.

Time will reveals.

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AFTER SPM !

(post to be continued... Stay tuned ! )

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Lets pretend your just few streets away

and it take me five minutes to reach for you

yes, i always tell myself that way

And surprisingly it really works :)

*waiting for your call*

2011-07-12T22:47:00.002+08:00

visited a few blogs just now and think that i probably need to stop by here and write a fews lines bout my day.

Didnt really did anything today. Been spending my whole humid afternoon hibernating inside the aircond room. no texting no onlining < true solid rest :)

Had signed myself up for blood donating at school today. I've actually no idea how the whole things or how the whole process of sucking the blood out of my body, collecting them into a big bag works.

And for frank, i am quite afraid of it. Never seen my own red juicy blood flowing out like an uncontrollable tap water in my Seventeen years of life. This really sounds exciting huh? Yeah.

Somehow, I'll just wait for the big day to come and throw myself into that campaign.

People, just join! dont care the consequences lahh,

''nyawa takdir Tuhan, kalo nak mati, mati jugak suatu hari pe. "

At least, you make an effort trying to help right?

Monte Carlo Movie Trailer Official (HD)

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*jealous*

i wanna be like her !

709

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First page of few chinese newspaper : GuangMing Daily, SinChew Daily, ChinaPress, NanYang Daily.

''Defiant Protestors converge in parts of KL despite restriction order and police warning.

Police fired tear gas and used water cannons to break up the crowd

(headlines of Star Newspaper)

-UMNO Youth chief, Khairy Jamaluddin ( Head of PATRIOT) got caught

-Bersih 2.o supporters almost clash in march to stadium''

These are some lines i picked from various newspaper today.

What actually happens to all the adults in the city I've no idea and i dont want to make any comments. And i really dont wish to get involve in any politics matters in our country. Its getting darkier as the same pace of the Harry Potter series if anyone of you actually follow up that movie.

Despite the Bersih 2.o rally happened on KL yesterday, the 709 which was said to be the biggest democracy rally of the years,

i still carry on my lala life as usual, walking to the nearby malay coffeeshop for breakfast like any other Sundays.

But a lil different from the usual me, i pay a lil more effort in observing the people after the big day.

Here,

still peaceful as ever, chinese and malays meet up at table talking politics, talking economy, laughing and joking with pipe and smoke, muching the yummy roti canai from the mamak stall, Hi-Bye between Indians.... etc.

See, told you , i always love staying back in a small town.

people here live as One, theres totally no sign of racist, no rancour or bitter discrimination, no protesting..

Who is the virus carrier that brings the inharmony waves hitting our community? who else beside the politician that craving for FAME ? who else beside the politician that compete for POWER ? who else beside the politician that eyeing on the $$ ?

im hereby not to side either the red Patriot or the yellow Bersih, I stand as oran

ge Neutral. I just hoping for some peace in our country.

How i ever wish to host some big-affective-politicians to stay here in this small kampong site and have their first-in-their-lifetime experiencing the Harmony that they actually fighting for.

Having rally walking around, with the water cannon, shutting down the Jalan Pudu... is this call the peace?

My dearest politicians of Malaysia my beloved,

please fight for Peace instead of Fame, Power and Money okay?

I'll give out free kisses as free tokens for your action. Your consideration will be appreciated.

eww asian?

nahh fighting for PEACE :)

Love, Janice Ng.

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You're falling in love with my insecurities,

my insatisfaction,

my constant blames,

my obsession of being a perfectionist,

my annoying demands,

my stupid questions,

my hopeless romantic heart.

You just did.

2011-07-10T09:23:00.007+08:00

Went to bed around 10pm which is surprisingly early...

A long pleasant sleep and wakup naturally around 7am

stone for half an hour on bed and decided to wake my sister up for breakfast

( im always a mean sister ;) )

Mind is running with the aroma of coffee

and images of roti canai is spinning in my head

slurrrrp tongue licking my juicy lips :P''

never forget to camwhore ofcourse thats what a blogger should be, kan?

Ooops the tamjiak face :X

theres is always reasons why i love being back at hometown.

love walking around without thinking bout the risk of being kidnapped or ...

hmm mind thinking of my roty canai and nose sensing the way

and heading to the nearby malay cafe

Loving the Sunday morning

I MEAN STRAIGHT A's FOR SPM 2011

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dayummmn i need a this !

aight make a deal ms.fab,

'' if I ever make it straight A's for my coming SPM, i mean As not A+s, I'll get one this for myself. Deal. ''

I've been thinking, how tough will it be to strike for straight As, well, i have faith and really confident to get straight As (terpaksa to sound confident la ofcourse although shivering like crazy inside), although i miss my sejarah this time. But look at the clock, theres still around 3 months for me to grab that A from Nabi Muhammad. and I can clearly see the benefit stands to my side. And i do really loveee my new Sejarah teacher, Mr. Liew. He has the POWERRRR hahaha :) and thats the first time in the centuries i stick my ass on the chair for history period. *bow to me*

whooooots Powerrrr I need some Powerrrr NOW !

OKAY CHANEL YOU WAIT FOR ME!

Listen and Shut up

2011-07-05T21:27:00.003+08:00

I'm a ''problem girl''.(Whooops ! it sounds serious. well chill la peeps..)

I mean im someone who loves to ask questions. and im famous for that in class, school or even inter-school. I always wonder when teachers teaching and this leads to all the stupid WH questionaire flooded in my mind. My friends often get frust of me and said that im a Dumbhead for not understanding a simple statement. And just for your information, teachers may even ignore my question and carry on the P&P.

Finally Im here to stand for my right AHAHA :D

" Class ! either you talk or I teach ! "

" Can you shut up when I teach ?"

We often hear this among us Asian schools where student were not given the opportunity to speak. And as the time goes, student are tailored and grow into a passive-kind-of- study behaviors, where you're allow to listen and not to give your opinion. In the other words, it means there's input but never an output. Then, let me question , What's the use of us to drill so much learning and memorizing all the theories but no practical

were allow to carry out? I guess, thats the reason of the low production of asian Nobel prize winner.

'' Class, put up your hands if you agree his explanation about the application of momentum. ''

( Students all go quiet staring at each other's pretty faces and just the beautiful tone of 'silence')

one minute.......two minutes......four minutes.......ten minutes............................

hurmm, dearest fellow teachers, i think its time for you guys to stop blaming u

s for not answering your questions in class because we are so well trained to just listen-and-shut up.

Flashback in year 2009, i was chosen for an international students exchange programme to Sydney Australia. I had personally experienced their class before. And its so common that in every period, students are given the ''golden'' opportunity to ''talk''. Students share their experiences of travelling during Geography, asking the history of geometry during Mathematics, self-conduct an experiment under teacher's supervision... Surprisingly, I was called u

p to talk about our Islamic countries. Its something ''Surprising and Fresh" to me because i seldom been called up to sound my words during class back in Malaysia. There's a lot of interaction between students and teachers in most of the westerners countries.

Sometimes, student's point of view is also strongly accepted by the teachers and was given a further elaboration on it and some extra information were transfered to other students as well.

Thats how a study should be isn't it?

Movie marathon

2011-07-03T11:52:00.005+08:00

Wakup hell early at 5am today for the 1 Malaysia Run thingy. Standing among 15k people, I still feel alone. I guess thats because Im with my earphone for songs.

Hurm..im not homed this weekend. Just feels like staying here having some private time alone. Sometimes, spending some time just alone without doing an

ything nor saying any words wasnt that bad. I found the way of enjoying. Well , not to say enjoy lahh, but just chill and stone. If i were to suggest a way of releasing stress, I suggest you peeps to try this > stay in the room, have to air cond switched on, have some slow rock music, and just lying down on the bed with the eyes wide open.

Ohh and i watched Love and Other Drugs

Its a beautiful touching love story. Both Jake Gyllenhaal and Anne Hathaway look charming and gorgeous. So basically the story is about Maggie (Anne) is a girl who suffered in Parkinson's disease first stage and the age of 26. Shes an alluring free spirit who won't let anyone or anythingtied her down. But she meets Jamie( Jake). They find themselves under the influence of the drug - Love. So did the guy choose to take care of the girl for his entire life ? Does the girl selfishly wants the guy to be by her side ? heehee watch yourself.

So have you guys watched the enormous huge gigantic new release Transformer yet?

I've watched it also with a few friends. A night of fun :) Its a happy ending for that movie but sadcase Optimus Prime broke his arm . Oops ! Shouldn't have reveal. *Slap my idiot mouth*

And I had a beatiful night. Nice long sleep.

LIFE IS A FUCK AND A TOTAL BITCH !

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when i was a little girl, i used to read fairy tales.

In fairy tales, you meet Prince Charming and he's everything you ever wanted.

In fairy tales, the bad guy is very easy to spot.

The black guy is always wearing a black cap so you always know who he is.

Then as you grow up, you realize Prince Charming is not as easy to find as you thought.

You realize the black guy isnt wearing a black cap and he's not easy to spot.

He's really funny and he makes you laugh and he has the perfect smile.

Never pay for KOPI

2011-06-29T15:30:00.005+08:00

Windows Media Player is playing ''I will follow you into the dark'' by Death Cab Cutie. < RECOMMENDED !

Im now totally putting myself into a ''blogging'' mode. Tuuuutt !

I got two big things to tell today.

First, I pass my driving licence! Finally im a P driver. Sekali pass. haha it was believe its hard for people to pass for the first time as the ''special department'' wanna earn more. well, this is what i was told laa... And now i believe how truly true this statement is.

Let me tell you the exciting part of my JPJ test today. So, the circuit part was smooth. Everything goes well except my wheels made out a HUGE SCREETCHING sound ( embarrassssing =.=) Ok, i should throw all the rubbish and get into the main point.

Here comes the Road Driving test. I enter the car with my signature charming wide smile =) But was greeted by a LANSI tester with a rayban shades. anyway who cares, as long you let me pass im happy with you.So i started the car and drive like normal la.. not even 5 mins i drive, i was order to stop the car by the roadside ( which means i fail my test )

i was like WHAT?! ITS NOT EVEN A 5 MINS DRIVE ! AND WHAT THE HUACK THAT I DID WRONG? << in heart . But ofcourse, in reality , i must manja manja siket.

me: bang, boley bagi chance tak? ku nak pass. boley la tolong...

tester: ehh, kamu memandu secara merbahaya camne nak gi pass?

me: har, boley la..ku tinggal sorang kat sini. susah lah takde transport.

tester: ..... camne nak bagi pass kamu beritau saya la...saya tolong...tak kate tak nak tolong...

me: ....................... 2 minits.................( still i was keep driving the car not wanting to stop, acting degil like i always do heeehee)......

tester: huh? nak cam ne? mmmm...Boley camni kalo kamu bayar la..ku tolong...

me: ( oohh, finally you wanted KOPI-LUI,rasuah,bribe, say la earlier )

harrr....jadi nak brape?

tester: hurm....RM 150 cukop la

me: ( fuck you idiot. rm 150 i can use to buy myself abalone soup or some branded on-sale heels, you thought my dad is a gold miner?) ahh? bang, dah hujung bulan, pocket money pon dah habis dahh, boley kurang siket?

tester: rm100?

me: mmm, tapi ku tak bawak duit dgn saya, nanti tunggu mak datang bayar boley?

tester: eh tak boleh, orang lain ku bagi fail.kamu saja ku tolong. Bagi lah telefon nombor

me : ( i was there stunted...give or not..was struggling inside) 01656xxxxx. i gave at the end

tester: kay bayar la ku nanti petang .kami settle la cam ne nak bayar..

and i sneaked away as fast as possible after the driving and hilangkan diri..

hurm...this is the first time in my seventeen years life me myself getting involve in a bribe case. In fact, i didnt do anything that he claimed ''MERBAHAYA''. I guess he plan to ''drink some coffee'' before i even enter the car. and yeah , throughout the whole driving journey, he wasnt paying any attention in my driving skills. He was busy discussing the ''coffee price''. haha so at the end of the day, i managed not paying for his cup of COFFEE.

Second, people who knows me know i flopped Chinese subject. and surprisingly again, my essay i wrote bout The Definition of Friendship won the World Overseas Chinese Students Essay Award. haha..i believed in my luck ! plus a lil of hardwork also ofcourse cehhh !

again, sigh for the dark part of Malaysia.

still, i stick to my caramel macchiato coffee - low fat extra hot double shot !

love, ms.fab xx

DIGI WOW AWARDS!

2011-06-28T21:31:00.002+08:00

MY FOOTSTEP is on DIGI WOW AWARDS !!! wooo congrats me la peep! im feelin' so fly lika G6~

anyway i would like to make an apology due to the inactive for the previous months.. frankly I AM A LAZY BUMMM! but well, ehem *clearthroats* this thing really motivates me. Checkout for more :) im freakin excited!

THANKS!!!!

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|It's all isn't about how to face the storm, it's about how to dance in rain.

By him .

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there must be a story behind every smile

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yorhhhhhhhhhhhh

why everyone is pushing me off to Singapore ??! i just couldnt understand what the fuck Singapore is better than Malaysia. And I am not even ready yet to leave this lalamalayland. Since little, i dont really spend time with family. Thought maybe in uni life, i could spend more time just being a princess lazying around in the room, or watching tv with daddy and mummy and have a simplest ever dinner with them instead of being a cheap labour surviving hard in a strange place and being the only foreigner there, everyday facing the never ending walls and washing the never-finish dishes. Life being worst than a kakak.

ughhh geram sial every single time listening to people promoti

ng how good Singapore is. Hello, i memang tau the Sing-ka-porh is an advance country, artificially clean , and a well-praised attitude. But im just not belong to that place. Tell you already i couldnt survive in hectic city life you all just cant understand. Huiyoooo ! manchang nia ! like talking chinese to an indian aneyh kuan !

REPEAT ONCE AGAIN : I DONT LIKE THE EDUCATION SYSTEM IN SINGAPORE. unless you give me 10, aiya 5 enough, 5 things S'pore is Better Than Malaysia then i might ''consider'' lahhh

*show tongue* and *pig nose*

Someone

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I sometimes wondering, does thing happened for a reason ? or just for the sake of happening, it happens. Its been awhile since the last im here to write something. Well too much happening in my life this couple of months. Things come things go. It frustrates me, it cheers me. I call that life. But ofcourse, i hate everytime things around annoys me cause im just to lazy to sort things out and im getting depending these days. Just girl's talk with one of my girlfriend last night and i told her that I need someone in my life.

Let me define my someone.

Someone here refer to a best friend : a person who help me to search for my lost pen while im getting frust sitting there blaming where it goes , someone to answer my every single why when i couldnt get what the physics theory refering to , someone who brought bunch loads of food just to sneak-eating while P&P is carrying on.

Someone also refer to a mate : a person who's willing to listen to all the blames when things going

in oppose, a someone who do all the dishes while im lazy sleeping, someone who just came over to make me cheese-mayonaise fried egg while im burning my midnight oil.

Someone refer to random friend as well : someone who just help you out seeing you getting geram while folding up a blanket with all the uneven corner, someone who is interested in your relationships stats, someone who just dont mind to share pringles with you.

Everyone needs someone-s. Like me, i couldnt live without a someone who answer all my WH-ques. Take your time to seek for the ''someone'' that meant to you. Its just another chapter of life story.

ciao

xx fab

2011-04-22T21:52:00.004+08:00

not here for quite some time

been so freaking buzy with school and sports

these are some recently pic of mine.

im doing fine here

lifes just full of speedbumps and crooked holes..

wish us luck :)

Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts

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honestly, i did alot of thinking lately. that almost killed my brain cells. Been telling myself, keep telling and reminding myself to move on and just fucking dont stay in the past.

But tell me, at the end of the day, who can do it? Scars meant to be forever.

Whats gone wrong within me ? I dont know. Whats happening ? Im not sure.Why things mashed up suddenly?

Perhaps i know the right answer.

She told me, we cant change the past, we cant control who to meet, we cant predict what will happen .. Then i answered, all of these wont happened if i did the right decision.

I may seems im alright (dont forget im good in faking a wide smile) , but its kinda hard inside.

How much time will it takes for me to get back up again and stand even higher? Or will i just stucked in the mud? All these silly question running through my brain every night.

I'm afraid, a feeling which i never felt before and a lil insecure in it.

These must be a big jokes '' Janice is afraid of something.''

yea, ive been double, nope, triple check . Truth is, she really started to feel afraid.

Today My Life Begins - Bruno Mars (Lyrics) [HD]

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Positive & Negative of Me

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So finally i think its time to blog something. Ive been missing blogging all this while but life just too buzy that i cant find some time out for my footstep.

Just made a visit to eunice's blog. Ive missed alot of chapters. Found that her blog improved so fucking lot since the last i visited, especially with all the nice edited photos of me ( ceeehwahh ). I always love being model under her lens. All the photos are random shots while we both having fun away from the shithole driving and poyo around. But now, since she got her BB, her camera was abandoned =( Sigh, it means photos of me will be less...

Life? yea alot to tell... But i think i'll just keep part of it =P

the right time will tell.

Here comes the point.

That day, while we were discussing a text bout self confidence , were asked to write a list of Positive & Negative Characteristics of Yourself. And so, i

made myself to examine my own , from head to toes. And i dont want to miss apart. Boobs? ah no, its not a criteria, Sorry dissapointment.

And these are what i could figure out :

Positives:

-perfectionist

-friendly

-hyperactive

-adaptable to all situation ( oops except for cooking )

-hardworking

-self-disciplined

-helpful

-responsible

-time conscious

-clean & tidy

-independent

-can make my own decision

-tough & strong

-not feeling shy to ask

-never say never

-sociable

-determined

-taking life easy ( biar je lah~)

-keep my promises

-brave

-ego ( been thinking to put this in positive or negative. and i think its a positive to me. Yes, Im egoistic and im proud. And i love myself being that way. )

-vain

-hot

-born to be a performer

-im me and im special

-flat and muscular tummy

Negatives:

-rebel

-selfish ( if you're mine, then you're mine.)

-bad temper

-low tolerance

-not caring

-mind my own business

-does not like to take up advise

-girls change her mind

-greedy ( i want more and i want all )

-kiasu

-sensitive ( i care what you say bout me. yes, every sin

gle word.)

-not understanding

-impatient

-emotional

-stubborn

-love being praised ( sometimes i dont know even if its honest )

-jealous

-mean ( if you treat me good, ill treat you double. if you treat me bad, i'll

show you triple)

-weird

-love being alone, unseen , unnoticeable

Okay that is all about me that i think what i am. Open for comments and objections.

No matter you like it or not, you got to accept it. Thats the element that made me a Janice.

Welcome you to hate me.

But i just want all of you to know, accept who you are and what you're made of.

Love me for myself , not for my beauty :)

with love,

xx ms.fab

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR !

2011-02-05T18:13:00.002+08:00

best wishes from ms.fab xx

just the mood swing a lil

2011-01-31T01:16:00.002+08:00

The Wall of My Heart

2011-01-29T15:14:00.005+08:00

''The higher the wall you build around your heart, the harder it is for someone to break it through.''

i feel insecure when i first got here and i started to learn on how to protect myself.

and i started to keep myself from the crowd and keep all the secrets on my own.

i thought thats the only way i could make myself survive and keep my pride

so that i wont collapse easily when it happened that i need to face everything on my own, when i most needed someone but theres noone around to give me a big hug and tell me '' you''ll be alright sweetheart''.

and as the time past, the wall get higher and thicker, and ive grown tougher.

i dont shed easily. im matured enough to say ''yes i can handle it my own i dont need any help'', ''no worries, ill be fine *smile* ''

and i got the skill showing a smile even i am crying deep inside. saying yea i can do it when i dont even have any idea on what the shit you're talking about. faking a smile even the tears are running inside the eyeballs.

I'll keep my head above the water even in a rough sea.

and at the end of the day, i was left inside myself and failed to show the truth of me beside to my girlfriends.

sometimes, i am hoping that one day, the wall will cracks a little so that i wont just live inside my own.

and so, i get to know more bout the world outside, and knowing more people that ive ignored.

and accepting people's helps and cares and feel comfortable about it.

and allowing someone to enter.

and so i could unveiled myself and let people know how preety my heart is deep inside.

but the wall happened to be so strong that even me myself fail to knock it down and find my way out.

ms.fab xx

Anthony Neely - Sorry that I loved you (with lyrics on screen)

2011-01-29T14:47:00.000+08:00

a lasting treasure or just a moment’s pleasure ?

2011-01-23T00:57:00.002+08:00

too much thinking tonight

ive been listen to my heart talking and i dont understand.

okbye.

i did the wrong thang

2011-01-19T23:56:00.004+08:00

when i first came to this place, ive already make up my mind. after five years, i leave.

i leave. without taking away anything from here: memories, friends , people...and hope that noones ever thinks of me after i leave cause i prolly not coming back to this shithole

i dont want to be a star anymore. whats wrong just to be someone who stays at the corner , wearing a cap, put down the long swaying hair down that almost cover her face and live her own life there doing things she like without caring what people thinks of her,walking with the high speed hoping no one could ever remember her face and dont talk much dont give smile much,not telling people who i am where im from and what i do. Just wanted people to remember that theres once a cool girl flash out in this place. just in random times, u see me appearing in certain place if ure lucky enough.

perhaps i was doing the wrong thing.this place is so beautiful. the people here is so nice. they have the preetiest heart. they are the most caring people in my life.

they mind what i do, they worried what happen to me, they questioned me when somethings goes wrong in me, they help out when i needed a shoulder most.how could i just keep forcing myself to forget bout all these after i leave? this is a nice part of memory.i know i realised that.

and i love my seven girlfriends that coloured my life here :)

well lets just see whats gonna happen in my last year here in my new hommie that basically sucks.

xx fab

lifes good

2011-01-19T23:13:00.002+08:00

just have to admit the fact that life sometimes is.........errr.....( couldnt search the right word to describe this)

i mean ,things just going so dramatically in my life lately.

im just being a lucky january babey i guess.

i love how things running in my life .. from people to school to life. just everything

but theres one thing .

one thing that worried me..

im scared. kinda scared that all these are just a dream.i scared that one day when i open my eyes, im back to the old me. the old place. the old thing.the old life.

im praying hard that i dont screw my beautiful dream.

and i pray that the dreams come true.and i wish these all that happened are in reality but not just a dream as i thought it is.

thanks that theres so much cool people appear in my all-the-while-nothing-happened-life and finally makes me feel worth it to be here for the past four years and the coming year.finally i nodded my head agreeing this is a nice peaceful place. that sometimes bring me surprise.

lets just wish the leftover one year will greater and awesomer.

ms.fab

shopping spree

2011-01-09T18:42:00.002+08:00

yogurt parfait for lunch after ballet

red dress for new year

ok bye. cont my blog when im free

back to the shithole in 5 mins time

ciao

fab

bye 2010

2010-12-31T20:14:00.004+08:00

Dear 2010 , youre finally come to an end and theres only a few hours left before entering the brand new page of life. I think its time for me to make a review before the hour hand strikes twelve. Ahh to me, it has been a really long year. Things happened , gone , forgotten and replaced. Theres also things happened , still , carved and irreplaceable. Good things bad things , laughes and cries make this a wonderful yet adventurous year. I actually been avoiding to sit infront of my Blogger posting page and blogging bout my year. Simply just because I cant believe ive actually gone through that three hundred and thirty five days and I STILL SURVIVE HERE. Im awesome and so to you who is viewing my post now.

Brief :

Jan - sweet sixteen

Feb -give up piano

Mac - Royal Academy of Dancing Ballet Award exam

April-

May - exam tension sial ~

June - TnF camp

July/Aug- Ballet Distinction

Sept- Got into Perak Gold Search contingent

Oct-School final. ive been really stressed up.

Nov/Dec- RAD ballet teaching cert,pangkor, fully resting month, pass my undang

What do i think of myself throughout this year ?

well, ive been a good girl i guess. Nothing much beside study my ass off and fucking get a nice flying colourful result.Kinda sad that dancing is deserted cause of the babi hectic school life. my abs goneee ! But what i want to say is, I think i failed my year. I failed to move on. I was suppose to improve myself in this whole long year but i didnt learn up anything at the end of the day. I wanted to get a job during this long hols but i ended up hanging around like nobodys business. emo banyak with my assface attitude. So what ive been a good girl, great dancer, atheletics ?so what if i get stupid straight A's in my exam? i failed to enjoy my high school life. all bout BOOKS jer ! I gotto accept the fact, IM A CERTIFIED NERD.kill me. And, im seriously caffein drugged. Insomnia critical stage.

I did something cool this year though:

jet skiing? tick

paintball ? tick

hanging? tick

pamper myself with shopping ? tick tick

tragus piercing ? tick

belly? cross

hair? tick

clubs? cross ( good girl )

gossips? tick

Crush?

hurmmmm..

ive been a lucky girl :)

by the way, thanks god for letting me meet up with so many cool peoples.

Plan for 2011?

ill do it in my next post.Im not ready yet for its grand arrival. But theres one thing im sure in my plan list, FUCKING STUDY MY ASS BURST AND STRAIGHT A PLUS !

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 !

xx ms.fab

2010-12-28T01:17:00.001+08:00

things getting better day by day. and i feel luckier as the day passed. wish me luck. sweetest sleep tonight.bye.

2010-12-27T21:53:00.003+08:00

BAD DAY full stop

WHAT COMES UP IN MY MIND

2010-12-27T03:21:00.003+08:00

i sprained my big toes :'( i failed to walk slower.i nearly fall. so yeah, keep to my normal speed better.

just came back from taiping. went down for mcdapplepie (nahh, to settle down some stuff), meet up sess with frens at sbux for 5 mins

im tired after some travelling.

i need more time, more holidays. im not ready yet for school.

im not in a mood.

im having a stomachache now, kill it.

missing.i want to be missed also.

i lost my just-bought-tragus-earing. :( i hate searching for lost thingy. so forget bout it.i have another side still. chillax

preparing for a nice sleep tonite.hopefully its a ''nice'' one.

ms.fab xx

2010-12-25T01:35:00.000+08:00

skyped chloe in uk :) merry christmas girlfriend. come back real soon and bring me my topshop stuff haha. missing you already.

i failed

2010-12-24T01:48:00.002+08:00

i hate myself always wanna be the winner but i never wanted to give.i hate myself always wanna own everything but too selfish to share.i hate myself for being that way.i fucking have to admit, im too ego sometimes. ive spend some time thinking back what the fuck ive done all this while.and find out im too much sometimes.

i never been a good person like what you see from the outside. i failed. i failed to be a better person this year. i didnt give a chance for myself to be better. i never allow myself to have an opportunity to improve.

fucking tell myself, i wouldnt improve if i didnt change my fucking attitude.i always said, i want this i want that, but i never pay a hardwork. i always doubt you, why you never give me this why you never treat me that , but at the end of the day, did i?fucking no.

i always been reminding myself, janice stop that, you need a change.but at the end, i make no difference.

JANICE YOU FUCKING BERAMBUS!

im so pissed of myself now.murder me.

fab x

Onitsuka Tiger

2010-12-24T00:55:00.000+08:00

Christmas is around and alot of friends either on the reality world or facebook, tumblr blogger started to discuss about ''What i want for this coming Christmas''.

i wonder why theres bunch of people out there saying '' All i want for Christmas is just YOU... "

Come on, christmas is just once a year and why are you wasting your wish on someone else ? To me, i would rather use it for my own. Yea, im just that selfish in case you dont know me.

Ive actually been spending quite some time squeezing my brain figuring out what i really need for my this upcoming christmas. I wanted to fully use my wish as i could only wish twice a year-one for my birthday and another for xmas. Im getting nervous when seeing my friends started to post their wish on the facebook wall this couple of days cause i really cant think of a thing that i really wanted or something that would wow-ed the crowd haha. im a bit worry that i may just waste my 2010 xmas wish. And i really dont want, seriously dont want to waste it. And i find that i was left behind because my xmas wish yet not posted up on the facebook, telling the whole world what im wishing for,as everyone is DOING THAT .Its kinda like a fb trend. and i dont want myself to be ms.kolot for not having a xmas wish on fb.

So, thanks god.

i finally got MY OWN christmas wish that i just figured it out.

tang tang *

''All i want for this coming Christmas is a pair of Onitsuka Tiger 's sneakers''

hmmm ~ i feel so relief now.phiew..

and i decided not to fb it cause i find it weird telling the whole world what my wish is and just dont want to be one of the wannabe.

so yeah, i decided to blog it out just for my footsteppers to know.

Lastly, please let my wish to be granted. Blessing my family to be healthy and happy all time. And my aunty to get well soon.

Peace :)

Merry Christmas 2010 and a Happy New Year 2011

xx ms.fab

2010-12-23T03:05:00.001+08:00

| Saying nothing sometimes speak the most.

SOMETHINGS THAT YOU DONT KNOW ABOUT ME

2010-12-22T00:57:00.004+08:00

i dont like shower.

i dont talk when im not in a mood.and i show faces.thats so bitchy i know.but i just couldnt help it :P

i talk to myself in the mirror like giving a speech when no ones around

im ego. i dont give an eye to people i dont know. i dont know you and you expect me to give you a smile? excuse me, my smile is not a free gift.

i check my naked body in the mirror to see where my fats grow.

sometimes i walk around with just my bra and panties on in my room.

i dont like wearing bra

i feel awkward when days without exercise or dancing

i hate deep frying fishballs

i dont like to eat rice. i cant control myself when i see titbits :)

dont expect me to say hi before you do.

i dont sleep with my closet or door open.i feel insecure

i dont show my toes while sleeping.

i must change into pyjamas before bed

i play around with my phone,checking on facebook before i sleep.

im selfish.i dont share my secret. if i said ''ive told you my secret'' , thats a lie (maybe sometimes,rare, it may be a real secret). cause i never tell my secret to anyone else even the closest. i keep them to myself.

when i was lil, i do a lot of stupid stuff. i use comb as a microphone. i play with my mums sanitary pad and afterall, i hide them under my bed.

i dont like children aged around 9-14 yrs old. they are so wannabe.

i only date with guys. im straight.

i never comb my hair.i love messy hair.

i dont like people touching my phone.i'll get mad if i found out you check on my msg.helo,its P&C.

sometimes, i said dont know not really because i dont know, but just simply because i dont want myself to get into trouble.

i dont like answering chain question.etc: where do you live? perak. but where did you born? penang. but why are you here? . . .

i hate people bitching bout me. but sorrey, i love bitching with bunch of gurlfriends.

i feel like im alone, ive got no friends, quite often.

im an atelophobian-someone whos fear of not being perfect

i drink coffee without sugar. i can drink 3 packets of nescafe in a single cup.

i change my mind easily.

i dont cry easily. cry doesnt help much as i think. i may seems strong outside.but sometimes, i wish i could just cry like a baby.

i am not shy in front of guys. so what if you accidently see my panties, you dont wear a panties kah? its normal lah bro.

i care how people judge me. and i'll put it in heart like for EVER.

i dont like to take up advice. i never needed you for corrections on everything from how i do to what i say.

i dont tidy up my room. but i'll make sure kak keeps my room clean.i'll scold like a mad dog if the floor is not mop.

* i apologize if i mis-type and offended anyone.this is just so random. if you feel offended, just ignore my stupidity.

by ms.fab xx

2010-12-17T14:44:00.001+08:00

BACK IN ONCE UPON A TIME

IM A SKINNY BITCH.

BUT NOW,

IM A FAT WHORE !!!

MURDER ME =/

Telephone - Lady GaGa Ft. Beyonce Knowles Cover by Audrey & Gamaliel

2010-12-16T02:39:00.000+08:00

met them on tumblr when im just having some tumblr walking

cool them ;)

and the bro is hott (xixixixixi)

2010-12-15T15:58:00.003+08:00

camwhoring sometimes make people stupid

ewww im really bored at homee !

fab xx

2010-12-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

so much to do lately.

searching for a new place to stay at tpg, my driving licence, perak atheletics team training sesh blahh and stuff..

spending a bit outta budget. mums not giving me pocket money since november and im so gonna dry up soon. MAK I !

and i get so stress up with my sports thing as well. i acctually still doubt to join perak team for mssm .DUHHH I CANT MAKUP MA MIND YETT..

CIAO.

not in a mood blogging.

somewhere that no one belongs to , neither you nor me .

2010-12-09T18:39:00.001+08:00

2010-12-08T12:01:00.000+08:00

2010-12-07T23:29:00.002+08:00

| The hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let go and when to say goodbye .

"I'm Movin' On" - Rascal Flatts Official Music Video

2010-12-07T18:08:00.000+08:00

2010-12-07T15:17:00.002+08:00

hey world im back :)

miss me hay ?

xx ms.fab

Love The Way You Lie

2010-12-01T19:22:00.001+08:00

| On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you'll always be my hero
even though you've lost your mind . I guess you've forgotten what you told me that you won't dissapear without me knowing it.

I'll miss you

2010-12-01T17:20:00.004+08:00

footsteppers, I will be away for a week so im not going to make any post up for this few days.I'll be off to Pangkor Island. But sorry,cause i wont be bringing my camera so, yeah, there wont be any photos up. But i'll make some copies down to show you guys if my other friends do bring it. Welcome me back with a nice tanned skin alright ? lol. And And ofcourse a fit-er body and nice abs on. aha !

May God bless me a safe trip there and bring me back in one piece.Everything will be going fine,fun,great,and experiencing.

Thanks Lord ( im a buddha lol but i just dunno how to address my largest God's name so yeah i'll just use the christian's instead .)

finger crossed

xx ms.fab

2010-11-30T20:37:00.001+08:00

I like when a guy,

Pinches my cheeks
Plays with my hair
Asks for a hug
Steals something I own and makes me run after him
Makes silly faces
Eats like a pig without being embarrassed
Tells me I look beautiful in sweats with no make up on
Puts his arms around my waist
Surprises me from the back and covers my eyes
Lets me borrow his jacket

2010-11-30T14:38:00.004+08:00

Letting go of the man i love in hopes that he will be happier with someone else, is the

worst

best

hardest

thing i have ever done

by Chloe

GIRLS TALK LAST NIGHT

2010-11-29T08:38:00.004+08:00

i have a really bad sleep last night. on the bed at 3am and hell thingy i need to wakup at 7am due to some urgent . And my beautiful morning is totally a disaster. things just messed with me for no reason. My eyes almost shutting at this particular moment. Jeeeeeeesh, someone just knock my head and wake me up please.

i'd skyped to one of my really close childhood friend whod move to UK a couple months ago and had an extremeeee long women's talk last night . and yeah, ive prolly learn up something. the earth isnt just as small as we used to think, as narrow as we used to estimate . Its so much heaps bigger and why are we struggling ourselves in some tiny little matters ? thats just doesnt make any senses. I really have to keep my teenage year occupied, make myself a real solid person.I aint that perfect as i thought, there's so many things out there that i havent learn up yet,theres so much buildings i havent seen yet,there so much language i dont know how to speak yet, theres so much so much. And i have to grow up , i have to be matured, cause who know that in sudden one day, i just have to face the world all alone ? Yea, i cant just struggle with you. my world isnt just made up of you. I have to keep moving. As what she said: thats just life, cest la vie.

Life at the moment not the one i longed for. well, i dont blame my current life. my lifes good, i have all the things that i want, my parents give me all they can. But i would probably move out of Malaysia as the life here is really a stressful one. I always being admired at those teenage out there where their lifes arent just about study. i adoured life where i could just simply lying down on the field reading up some novels, snacks in my backpack with a bottle of juice and just spend my whole sunday lying there staring at passer-bys. how could i missed out camwhoring, music and BFF ?Okay Janice, listen, what you have to do at the moment is FUCKING STUDY YOUR ASS OFF and you can have the things you longed for, just be patient. The time will come to you and your mister-kind-of-guy will come to you.

erghh im just so tired. gotto catch my sleep soon.

xx fab

Insomnia

2010-11-28T16:11:00.002+08:00

got some serious issue up with my health lately for dont know what freakin reason.

Suffering in Insomnia critical stage.if only theres a medicine to cure this, i would rather spend my fortune to just get that pill. ofcourse not sleeping pill.

ive lost my body coordination mentally.let me explain this : my eyes wanted to sleep, but my brain doesnt.when my brain does, my eyes doesnt. FML ! not only that okay people, im in holidays. and if i were me, i usually woke up at 10am which is preety normal. but the problem is something gone wrong somewhere, i wake up at 5 am !

a close-up of me

seee, how serious my dark eye circleS is =(

eww~

btw, what to do beside smile and live my life ??

errrgh

god save us linkin park

ms.fab xx

you just made my day =D

2010-11-27T22:09:00.003+08:00

overslept again today . i wasnt usually do that but once in a blue moon ahhhh its pretty normal i know .

okayy im just telling something awkward at studio today. I understand that attraction not only is in the eye of the beholder but is something that radiates stronger than the naked eye. But, frankly,to me , as a girl , the appearace ,the outlook really IMPORTANT . And i just couldnt understand why there are some girls in this planet who MIND to spend a split secs to brighten up themself. For sure, we cant blame someone who born to be a bit not-so-attractive or a bit plump. But woman, please larh , at least take care of your personal hygiene and make yourself look more tidy. Dont let guys fool at us.

basically, i ''accidently'' saw a girl's armpit and i spotted the hair of hers. well , i know its hyper normal someones having ''hair'' under arms. But this girls just made my day. i was nearly burst out laughing like all the dancers are deaf. She prolly hasnt been ''manage'' her hair since her puberty started i guess. Or maybe shes believing in some weird traditional saying, i dont know. What ever it is , hey CHABORH, AT THE VERY LEAST , please ''trim'' it.

random:

some primary girls from ballet calling me ''TEACHER JANICE'' .

THANKS FOR MAKING MY DAY .

xx fab

2010-11-26T17:41:00.002+08:00

And I am sorry. I tend to hide myself from you for some reason.

2010-11-26T17:30:00.002+08:00

yes you .

Slumberrrr

2010-11-21T15:18:00.003+08:00

its holy-day woooots

basically i have no planning up yet

will let my sister taking over the job to organise it and

i'll just probably be the usual acting-i-m-stupid-i-dont-know-anything 's kind of sister.

so i wont get some mess on myself

lalala =)

girls out with nireji kato the cutest japanese(i like to call her this way)

dinner at MANILA PLACE GP

I had lasagna( beef ) oooohyum. IMFATIKNOW =((((

then movie sesh

HARRY POTTER IS JUST FUCKN BORED

sorry if i offended any of their fans.but yea i ''was'' hp fans but in their novel but not movies

i cant get it evrytime i watch beside the first chap cause theyre CUTE

harry potter looks sangat teramat not handsome

gettin worst with his specs oh gawd kill him please hahha

RON is up a bit ugly looking

but HERMOINE is too gorgeous and i love her new hairstyle

hurmmm considering on that hairstyle nanana

me and nireji keep asking each other every minute ''whats the time now''

seriously if im not wearing jeans, my ass would have burnt

so looooong

and the endings a bit sucks. where we were bought to KUBUR with the awkward lookin VOLDEMORT.i wonder where is his nose.

can he just put on something like mask or just stuck some play-doh on his nose like Michael Jackson do ??!!!

SLUMBERRRRR !!!!!!

HAD A BLESSED SLEEP AT NIREJI'S PLACE

nireji* come to my place next kay ?

xx fab

craze

2010-11-19T14:50:00.001+08:00

whatever you say

im still ME .

x fab

2010-11-18T13:13:00.004+08:00

| You don't know , don't you ? That in a crowded place , my eyes will always search for you .

one malaysia

2010-11-18T11:51:00.005+08:00

See

How Dumbledore from Harry Potter speaks on 'One Malaysia' concept (lol) :

| The pain we all feel at this dreadful loss , reminds me , reminds us ,

that we may come from different places and speak in different tongues ,

our hearts beat as one .

2010-11-18T10:17:00.003+08:00

to me, the smartest has both the Brains and the Balls.

holidays not even started and im feeling freakin farkink bored.

how the fark im goin to survive for the rest of the month ?

........( counting with my fingers).......

i havent been playing a ''full song'' since my last piano lesson, if im not mistaken.

anyway im the one enjoying others playing for me but not the one playing.

whatever it is , i still love music.

maybe one day,if i get bored with my hairstyle

dont shock to see me in this '' pokka patch'' =)

sitting in my room just with my bra and underwear on

guys out there, its normal among girls

all girls do that.

People who love Books not a Nerd .

I love Books .

and then i got dissapointed.

well, ive make up my idiot mind

I Quit !

something i should do during this long holidays.

ohhhh shit, I GOT HEAPS DANCING UP !!!

just some random pictures bout my woollalla life

xxx ms.fab

kiss

2010-11-17T11:21:00.001+08:00

| the best way to shut me up is to kiss me hard .

hesitate

2010-11-15T09:58:00.002+08:00

i keep staring on your name eventhough i know u wouldnt appear

but im stubborn . i thought that that could just make you magically here with me

i dont know what im doing and what the hell im thinking

im scared that these are all just a dream

maybe one day when i realised it , u will just dissapear in the mist .

but im still doubt to quit.

im hesitating just because u had walk into my mind.

xx fab

Sunday

2010-11-14T16:27:00.004+08:00

this is what some stupid i do during weekends

i may be artistic too in certain condition

see my custom-made coffee bean cup

what else beside camwhoring ?

\m/ '_' \m/

xoxo

ms.fab

David Archuleta - Crush

2010-11-13T22:57:00.000+08:00

Perhaps, its just a crush

I dont know

i'll just let it be

and will see how long we can go

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time
Deep inside it was a rush, what a rush

?Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way
About me, just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain?t going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl?
Are we just friends? Is there more? Is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
?Cause I believe that we can make this into
Something that will last, last forever, forever!

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
?Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain?t going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we could be, where this thing could go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it really just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
?Cause I've tried and tried to walk away
But I know this crush ain?t going away-ay-ay
This crush ain't going away-ay-ay

Going away
Going away-ay-ay
Going away-ay-ay

buy one get one free

2010-11-07T21:10:00.003+08:00

ADVERTISEMENT TIME !

Starbucks

buy one CREME BRULEE and get ANOTHER for F.R.E.E.

im serious =)

erghh holiday can u just be a.s.a.p

i cant wait for it you idiot slow motion time

ms fab

2010-11-06T00:15:00.002+08:00

i guess ive made my decision

so yea.. im doing it.

ive been thinking all the pro and cons..keep thinking bout it

what and what pro what and what cons

i even forgotten to follow what my heart sounds

ive been telling myself things like ''i know im not ending up in dancing field'' or ''life will be too tiring dear!'' ''in the future then, u'll end up a PILOT , so what for u spending so much effort and time in it? ''

yeah, thats just another t-junction of life

preety much sure im taking the right side turning to the another path of my life without hesitate

finger cross for my next few years

blessing me

a certified ballet teacher in few years time

whooooots

xx ms.fab

decision

2010-11-01T12:06:00.002+08:00

hmmmph...okay i thought evrything should be fine

but

it doesnt seems like that sigh

sometimes i feel like im so fail

i make decision without thinking and then afterall

i started to feel that im wrong and start blaming

and then my day ruined

sometimes i really need to be fucked up or to be screw only i know some pengajaran ( im sacarstic for the fukk part )

hopefully, i could manage well this 2 years throughout the process

i dont want to see myself failing and people around me starts to feel hurt

anyway god bless i'll be fine

okie, i'll allow myself to cry to mumble to blame in this 2 years

and i wouldnt let myself to say ''I QUIT!''

so yeah, GO JANICE ! YOU CAN DO THAT ASS WELL .TRUST ME .

but

theres a syarat : never let dancing fail your future

hopefully it wont

xx jan

2010-10-31T19:18:00.002+08:00

just to announce it here im taking ballet teaching cert.

i'll be undergoing a teaching training programme soon very soon

so yeah im pretty much happy bout that !

* peace *

exam pressureeeee

2010-10-17T00:49:00.004+08:00

basically... i was in examm pressure and eunice just wanna have some fun

and it has been such an ages mum hasnt get mad with us

i mean, we enjoy seeing how my mum's slutty face look like when she get mad with us

and so we tried on all her nice cocktail dress , dinner wears

that would probably make her face grows extreme long =)

and also both of us were on heat with '' LIKE A G6'' that keep playing on the hits

so this is how this bitch slutty gila babi video produce

just during halfway doing the ''sexy dance'' (i know it craps),

mother huacker dad bang the door and came in

another failed plan =(

enjoy.

miss fab

beaching

2010-10-10T14:10:00.005+08:00

read it from the bottom please

im kinda lazy to rearrange it.

omfg exam is cumming up and im still beaching .ohgoshyy

getting ready to boost !

cost me rm 50 per 15 mins ride.

expensive hor..

but its really satisfying.

awesomenesssss =)

the speed.the omph!

POWERRRR!!!

new sports im crazie of.its so mencabarkan.for double sure. CUN !

AVee..SHES the hottest surf girl

nice hot skinny body

she make me into the surf job.may consider.

okay i'll add it into my to-do-list

and in the future, IF IM A RICH WOMAN, ill buy myself a jet ski.

if and only if.

my first time jet skiing. what a nice experience =)

the massive-est ais kacang ive ever met in my lifetime

rm 15 +

im so gonna sue them if its not massive.

my two sexy nieces

according to my cuzzie, smoooothies is fattening.

according to me, smoooothies is yummmmmmm.

mango's

okay u just have to admit it that i ve used to move my big ass from one to another place

so basically ive travel with

1.ripcurl backpack

2.tiny flowery handbag

3. billabong laptop

then, just MOVE !

TAIPING-SELAMA-PENANG within 2 hours

haha cummon break my records !!

my best mixED friend

i tried not to CAMWHORE that much but i just couldnt help it any more

teh tarik from sri anandha's <>

.veenalism.: Words for you,MOM.

2010-10-10T14:10:00.000+08:00

.veenalism.: Words for you,MOM.: "DEAREST MOM, As from the first day until now , i came to this world, you always said that 'your character will never change,always been so ..."

2010-10-04T01:37:00.003+08:00

trying long dress outfit

i think i look good on it =)

new sunnies <3>

hair treatment at Baptain NewWorldPark before family's dinner

i look tired

i Am tired

bing*

ms.fab

MsFEgg Burger

2010-10-02T17:37:00.004+08:00

ive been trying to tell friends around me that actually I'M A GOOD COOK

i mean, i do cook at home and i do serve food that can be eaten without causing diarrhea

but hell is noone actually believe

i dont know why but ive been trying hard (real hard) to convince them , their impression on me as the worst cook on earth

it was in a sudden that i felt so strong on wanting to have a McEgg burger this morning

but u know, where can i get it here in Selama. and also those malay stalls weren't there yet to serve at this time. ( hey bang, lain kali bukalah breakfast time, u can beat McD mia trust me. all malay stalls serve nice burger ! serious. )

And yes. i was geared up to make an egg burger for myself

I googled to search for

''A Perfect Egg Recipe''

i may sound stupid for browsing an ''egg recipe'' learning on how to fried a perfect egg,

but yes, i just did that.

some egg illustration images flew across my mind:

i wanted my dream egg to be like this:

my egg york to be runny, and on the middle , no leaking

no burnt edge on my egg white

and lastly taste creamy

but then.....

.....

it ended up like this:

shut your guts up footsteppers im tripple sure u must be LOL-ing

or there must me a slight grin on your lips.

STOP THAT !

so cilakak you know

i really read through the lines in the recipe

and do what stated there

''In a hot non-stick pan, melt a knob of unsalted butter. Crack the eggs onto a plate, and then slide them carefully into the hot butter. "

sigh

it looks more like a scrambled egg

anyway my burger still consider as PASS larh~

its yummm !!!

but just that.............................. it comes with a failed-egg

tang tang *

Name of burger : MsFEgg burger (altered from McEgg Burger McD )

Pronunctiation :miss-faek-burger

date of birth : 10:03 am 2 october 2010

ingredients : 2 eggs, 2 slices of wholemeal bread, butter , cheese slice,

Cook : Ms. Fab

so a new updated* MY PERFECT GUY list

a new criteria added:

he must be good in frying eggs and bonus for those who can manage to make an egg burger

MISSION FAILED .

3 cup of coffee today.

mum, dont screw when u see this hahahahaha. coffee make my brain smarter. essential vitamins for me.

ms.fab

OneRepublic - Come Home LIVE! @ Stripped

2010-10-02T16:44:00.000+08:00

Come Home from One Republic

kinda addicted to this band lately...yah..them..

trying to look through all their lyrics..

beutifully said

''The phones been patient to hear your call, but you never touched the dial''

ms.fab xx

DREAMS OF MS.FABULOUS (updated)

2010-10-02T01:26:00.003+08:00

1-20 of 10000000000000000 bahahaha

ive got it -bold + italic

1. Nikon vintage camera

how stylish it is to hang around your neck

2. Paul Franks new collection

3. Gucci key holder haha found it when i was cleaning my room

4. Starbucks tumbler- its GREEN EARTH and also it helps me to save up to rm2!!!!!!!

5. Roxy beach cowboy hat

6.iPod nano- orange will be the perfect choice of mine. 4Gig

7. ALDO heels ( its every girls dreaaaaam ) >> Charles & Keith's

8. Ray-Ban : Classic Aviator with gold steel (YAYYYYY) and Wayfarer

see , how stylish you could look if youre wearing a wayfarer . Robert Pattinson looks super hot with the shades on. and so Fergie from BEP do !

9. ZARA night wear- cocktail dress

10. Adidas cap ( i got a Puma's instead )

11.nike supreme

12.mini cooper once i got P ( stop making millionaire dream lar)

13.Boy size watches of Swatch

14.Bonds unddies

15.superman boxer which meant for guy ( but who cares )

16.nintendo NDS (wendy got it. so i can just have hers )

17.DANCER

18.visit to switzerland

19.small island around sabah

20.phi phi island

ive used arond 3 months time to get 8 out of 20 of them done.WELL DONE FAB! if i keep up my ''stamina'' i think i need 5 more months to get my first list done. GO JANICE !

MY KIND OF GUY

2010-09-24T22:25:00.003+08:00

1. Do you need him/ her to be good looking?

-yes deff

2. Smart?

yea..i wudnt wish to date a dumbie

3. Preferred age?

-ummm i would prefer those who is older than me. i look old.frankly. age is not a limit as long as i fall in long. sounds dramatic hay. but is kinda true =)

4.Preferred height?

-slightly taller than me

5. How about sense of humor?

-a lil . not too much . it would be bored to date someone whos too serious

6. How about piercings?

-yes. on one side of his ear.

7. Accepts you for who you are?

-yess for sure

8. Pink hair?

-hell no ! thats lala..

9. Mushy or no?

-no

10. Thin or fat?

-no too skinny but slim and fit.

11. Black, Brown, Yellow or White (skin color)?

-brown tanned. im acceptable for all races. indian? ! yes. i dont mind actually. satu msia wert.hahah
( plus im not that into chinese, maybe i havent met one )

12. Long hair or short hair?

-skinny bald short hair. they looks hot. etc: taeyang the korean hot guy.

13. Plastic or metal?

-whats that? err well i love guys wearing metal watch. you know, a guy with watch can simply brings them out. serious.

14. Smells good?

-deff for sure. guys with spray (GA or ralph lauren) smell TASTY ! =D

15. Smoker?

-for me yess. i mean they are like part of the accesories for guy. together with zippo. ofcourse not those severe smoker with yellow teeth and smells like nicotine. urm.

16. Drinker?

-ya acceptable. but not mad drunken pls.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?

-depends. but hell no to those guys repeat wearing seasoned-tshirt . thats gross

18. Muscular?

ya a lil. abs and shoulder. yumm hot man

19. Plays piano?

- yes!
true story: once i was really attracted with a guy when he was playing piano . thou he was playing some classical. hell yes.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?

-acoustic guitar. i wish theres someone could play me music everytime i ask for it. and on my wish list i think i should probably add '' acoustic guitar Somebody by Kings of Leon''. and i wish i could learn from him.

21. Plays violin?

-no harm, but its a bit gay for guys playing violin.

22. Sings very well?

-oh please.if not better shaddap =)

23. Vain?

-nahh

24. With glasses?

-only when hes not with con

25. With braces?

-why not

26. Shy type?

-no.i prefer sporty ones.

27. Rebel or good boy/girl?

-rebel. i love samseng ones haha. those good boy are mumys boy

28. Active or passive?

-both

29. Tight or bomb?

-tight.but whats dat?

30. Singer or dancer?

-dancer. so that he could dance with me.how romantic.

31. Stunner?

-yes ofcourse

32. Hiphop?

-no.stop talking like a nigga.
prefer oldskool boy. driving ford.wearing raybans.and timberland sandals.

33. Earrings?

-YEEESSSSS!!! i always look at guys with earing =) serious.

34. Mr. count-my-ex-boy/girlfriends-until-you-drop?

what dat?

35. Dimples?

yess.a lil not too deep.

36. Bookworm?

-dont looking nerd .but i need a knowledged-guy

37. Mr/Ms. love letter?

-once in a while. its kinda romatic XD

38. Playful?

yes. i hate dumbface guy.they are bored

39. Flirt?

-only with ME!

40. Poem writer?

-no. hes not shakespeare

41. Serious?

-serious when in a relationship with me,cos im particular in that.playboi, keep ur ass at home

42. Campus crush?

-nahh not really. it will be bored to see each other evday at sch

43. Painter?

-yea draw me sumthg so i could stivk it on my fore bed

44. Religious?

-im fine with any religious.as long as i got my freedom

45. Someone who likes to tease people?

-nop.u may thk u are cool but ure NOT

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?

-both i hate.

47. Speaks 20 languages?

-how cool is that!

48. Loyal or faithful?

-both

49. Good kisser?

- for sure yes.

50. Loves children?

-YES .cause he'll be looking after children once we got married.

end.
ms.fab

mission to make a better day

2010-09-19T18:25:00.003+08:00

my mood was the suckest this sunny sunday
something ruined me and turn my mood off and i still couldnt get it over this morning when i woke up
maybe im just way too bad for you
maybe i really have to find out whats wrong with me
im sorry and just put that blame on me if that would make you feel better
im not doing any apologize to you
still, im not the wrong one and seriously..i dont think i owe u any ''sorrey''

Food-seeking today makes my day a lil better

nireji rang up and brought me a good news
hang out with me< awesome
as i really need someone to talk with and spend some vitamin M to cure my day

we were both in DRESS today < exotic
i really PUMP to make myself happy
set off with zara dress and ballet flat
nireji: black and white dress with LV sling(she looks cool on them) serious.

im madly hungry after ballet
CHOPPER BOARD for lunch (recommended by nireji)
i havent make any visit after years it has been opened
BLACK PEPPER CHICKEN RICE + GINSENG TEA+carrot sago
yumm FULL !! and still that quote: IM FAT MANN
anyway, cheap lunch that cost me rm8.50 weyh lagi with desert tau..

basically im seeking for shoes today
shoes on mission
so, finally bought Charles & Keith flat.
thanks mum
one more for normal outing-use.thanks again mum

tea at coffee bean
HEY MR STARBUCKS, ITS REALLY TIME TO MAKE INVESTIGATION on NEW DRINKS.
coffee bean serves better drink and cheaper food...ni tak bohong tauh.
and their breakfast is really yumm plus cheap also
first, their greentea frap is nicer..urs one arhh aduyy sangat pahit lagi manis larh
two, more variety..urs one har..not latte ma espresso lorh.not espresso ma mocha lorh
pleasing you..mum banned me from taking coffee..so the only choice for me only hot choc from you..
pleasssee add some other drinks like vanilla or hazelnut like CB do.

then homed
ms.fab

Kanye West - Runaway feat. Pusha T (CDQ)

2010-09-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

sometimes, how good if runaway in life can solve problem ?

One Malaysia

2010-09-16T11:40:00.003+08:00

off day
just make it in time to wakup for my breakfast *peace
as i seldom have any chances to really sit down and enjoy my breakfast
so basically im happy on wat im doing now > chillin with facebook news update, thinking on my to-do-list, staring at random walkers,listening to some raggae-jazz-country song

oh shit
newly updated to-do-list:

learning up guitar- so that i could entertain myself when im bored
looking for a perfect dream car-mustang or cooper in time, so that i can make it to drive myself around to n fro back home
stop caffein intake-im severely addicted. ssssh....having espresso secretly at the moment
save money-get myself a longchamp
back to a nerdy life -weee year end final cummin up and frankly, im excited for those big daySS
get some skills ''barista'' maybe-im bored after i finished my graded ballet
on diet- IM FAT AND IM MAKING THIS STATEMENT VERY SERIOUS.

enough. im scared that the truth is '' i cant make it any one on the list '' hahha

IM GEAR UP PEOPLE !

just got a msg from brooke . breakaway to bkt merah .bless everything goes fine =)

ms.fab

OneRepublic - Secrets (Acoustic)

2010-09-13T17:15:00.000+08:00

2010-09-12T19:31:00.002+08:00

Hey world , i've joined tumblr
click here for the link =)

what will gonna end up on this blog ?
still wondering.

Dad's 55th- Garden Party

2010-09-12T14:04:00.004+08:00

a SURPRISE garden party for my dearest DADDY

eunice came up with idea again

a surprisingshockingbirthdayparty for dad's 55th

so both of us drove back to taiping on monday to

-buy groceries from Tesco

cheese/black pepper sausage,vodka,sunquick,junk

random: we ate marshmallow without paying as its already open by some unsivilised human

-get my camp things done

-life fucking tuition

-a cake

ON THA BIG DAY ( wednesday;Selama) :

fruitcocktail ( alcoholic )

* fruit punch

* nata de coco

*f&n orange

* sprite

* FIVE carlsberg (L)

* sunquick

yummmmmmest of the nite

preparation

trimming some sausage for barbeque

peisi and weiling visited and helped around

speciew incidents:

my 5 dogs escaped and chase after my cock

hahah that the feathers ive collected after the big DOG-COCK FIGHT

PARTAY STARTED !!!!

Small tiny party

ms fab RULESS !

Daddy, may u have a blast 55th buffday

enjoy ur big day

and may god bless u a healthy wealthy life

(attn: see the tee my dad wearing. it looks like table cloth that seasoned for years. my dad usually wears timberland or AX or CK or guess for special occasion. hahah..but as i said THIS IS A SURPRISE PARTY. my dad got no idea where he is going when his friend fetching him up. he was told to had a drinking session in some *&*&%^&*%#@#$# kopitiam haahha.)

mum me and nanna

vodka time <3>

brooke said its a kiddie drinks

haha

BERLAGAKK JER!

this is why im ITCHY for the past 3days

im born not to be a party girl

i cant take much alcohol as IM REALLY ALLERGIC TO IT !!

GEEEEZ.

pheww~what a big day

OHYEAH !!! MY DAD KISSED MY MUM YIEWWWWWW

ms.fab

love you footsteppers

Bob marley "no woman no cry" 1979

2010-09-11T18:39:00.000+08:00

footsteppers,
this song of bob marley *recommended*
well ,what a true statement 'no woman no cry'
what if no woman on this earth , there wont be so much tears rolling
etc:
1. i have a 'mum' that canned me when i was lil, and ive got no idea how much tears id wasted on the sake of crying
2. i could still remember i cried like a buffalo once i was scolded by one of my teacher when i was around eight i think. shes an old virgin. just imagine, she didnt even cane me, but by NAGGING and she manage to make me cry. and the reason of nagging me >>>
tang tang tang tang .........
i mis-stepped her shoe while i was walking behind her heading to the field for pj. What The Fxxk is that scolding me over small lil tiny thingy! babi die tuh.